Thank You Thank You Thank You

Thank you again for all of your thoughts and prays!!! They really got us through the last week of waiting.

Yesterday we had another ultrasound and everything looked PERFECT. The baby's heart rate was 160bpm and I am measuring at 8w 2d which is right on. You could even see the little legs and arms starting to form :). We finally feel like we can be excited about this pregnancy!!!!

Mike and I are waiting to make the news completely public till the end of my first trimester so if you know me in the "real world" we would love if you didn't spread the news (I would never ask you to keep anything from you husbands though).

Thank you again from the bottom of my heart for all of your thoughts and prays. To everyone still waiting/trying for their miracle..... I know how hard hearing of a new pregnancy can be. You are in my prays that your day will SOON come.

Thank You

Thank you for all of your kind words and prays. They are working!!! I feel much more at peace today.

The Power of Prayer

Normally I wouldn't be revealing this so early but yesterday I went in for my second ultrasound and my baby's heart rate was still too low. My midwife warned me that something might be wrong. I have to go back in a week so they can check it again.



I really believe in the power of pray. Please be praying for us.


Look below for post I had wrote previously but didn't publish. There is one for the day I found out I was pregnant and my first Dr's appointment.

Happy Birthday Mr. Brouwers

Today is Mr. Brouwers 28th birthday! Happy Happy Happy Birthday LOVE :)

Mr. Brouwers is the best man I've ever met. He has shown me such unconditional love over the years. His patience with me never wavers and he has this uncanny ability to make me laugh when I'm on the verge of tears. His dedication and drive for success while staying in control of what is most important is something to be admired. He is cute, smart, funny, talented, kind, loving, and my favorite.

This past year during our struggles I've seen a whole new side of Mr. Brouwers, a side that has made me love him even more. He has whipped away countless tears, been to millions of doctors appointments, and has listened to my endless list of worries.

He is my rock.

He is the LOVE of my life

Love at 1st Sight - Written on 2/9/2010

Today was my 6 week doctors appointment. My midwife wanted to an ultrasound to confirm viability because of my previous loss. I've had tons of ultrasound over the last 4 months and all of them have been a big ole blank screen...well there was follicles and eggs but nothing exciting like a yolk sac and a heartbeat. Today Mr. Brouwers and I saw a heartbeat and it was love at first sight....well actually it was love as soon as I saw the second pink line on my pee stick but you know what I mean :). Unfortunately the heartbeat was at 116bpm not quite where she would like to to be so I have to go back in a week.

I just keep sending the praise up and thanking the Lord for getting me this far along.

Weekend Report

This weekend Mr. Brouwers and I traveled to my hometown to spend some time with my family. Friday night we met my parents at Five for dinner. We had never been there before and were a bit worried when we noticed that we were the ONLY people in the restaurant!!! The food turned out to be awesome and it was actually kind of nice to have a VERY quiet dinner

Saturday we headed to Zap Zone for my nephew Kevin's 10th birthday party. We played laser tag and had a blast. The kiddos wanted to play adults vs kids and of course we beat them every time. We showed no mercy. HA! After the party Mr. Brouwers and our made our way to the Somerset Collection to hit up Crate and Barrel. I can not even begin to tell you how happy this place makes me - Mr Brouwers on the other hand not -so- much. Mr. Brouwers is not a "shopper" he is a buyer and always wants to have a plan of attack. Unfortunately for him I had no idea what wanted to buy. I tried to make it as painless as possible and after only an hour we ended up with these goodies

After Somerset we relaxed at my parents house and met them at one of our families favorite Italian restaurants for dinner.

Sunday morning we took my mom out for a birthday brunch and then we headed home.

All and all it was a great weekend. Eating and family...two of my favorite things :)

Round 2- Written on 1/27

Last week Tuesday I was down in the dumps. I had taken a pregnancy test that morning and it was negative. I felt defeated and sad that the first round of Clomid didn't work for us. For some reason I had it in my head that if it didn't work the first month it just wasn't going to work at all. I sent Mr. Brouwers an email while I was at work saying that I was sad and depressed (I've never done anything like that before). He was sweet and said not to worry about cooking dinner and that we should go out. On my way home from work I had this sudden urge to go buy another pregnancy test. I had been using some cheap strip test that I purchased online and was making up stories in my head that the test must be defective or something.

When I got home I tested right away but left the bathroom and went to go play with Rocco. About 10 minutes later I was STUNNED to see two lines. I convinced myself that I was seeing two lines in my head. I sat on the couch counting the seconds down till Mr. Brouwers arrived home. As soon as he walked in the door I showed him the test and said "Am I crazy or do you see two lines too" he indeed saw two lines. We hugge, high-fived and went out to dinner to celebrate. Unfortunately there is a bit of a black cloud over our celebration...we know the reality of a seeing a positive pregnancy test doesn't mean you are going to have a baby 9 months later.

On Wednesday morning I called the doctor first thing and I went in for two rounds of blood work. My first hcg was 40 and two days later it was 123!! Now I an not so patiently waiting for our ultrasound on Feb 8th.


Side Note: I took another "cheap" test the next morning and it was still negative. I wrote the company a letter and got my money back.