Last week Tuesday I was down in the dumps. I had taken a pregnancy test that morning and it was negative. I felt defeated and sad that the first round of Clomid didn't work for us. For some reason I had it in my head that if it didn't work the first month it just wasn't going to work at all. I sent Mr. Brouwers an email while I was at work saying that I was sad and depressed (I've never done anything like that before). He was sweet and said not to worry about cooking dinner and that we should go out. On my way home from work I had this sudden urge to go buy another pregnancy test. I had been using some cheap strip test that I purchased online and was making up stories in my head that the test must be defective or something.
When I got home I tested right away but left the bathroom and went to go play with Rocco. About 10 minutes later I was STUNNED to see two lines. I convinced myself that I was seeing two lines in my head. I sat on the couch counting the seconds down till Mr. Brouwers arrived home. As soon as he walked in the door I showed him the test and said "Am I crazy or do you see two lines too" he indeed saw two lines. We hugge, high-fived and went out to dinner to celebrate. Unfortunately there is a bit of a black cloud over our celebration...we know the reality of a seeing a positive pregnancy test doesn't mean you are going to have a baby 9 months later.
On Wednesday morning I called the doctor first thing and I went in for two rounds of blood work. My first hcg was 40 and two days later it was 123!! Now I an not so patiently waiting for our ultrasound on Feb 8th.
Side Note: I took another "cheap" test the next morning and it was still negative. I wrote the company a letter and got my money back.
When I got home I tested right away but left the bathroom and went to go play with Rocco. About 10 minutes later I was STUNNED to see two lines. I convinced myself that I was seeing two lines in my head. I sat on the couch counting the seconds down till Mr. Brouwers arrived home. As soon as he walked in the door I showed him the test and said "Am I crazy or do you see two lines too" he indeed saw two lines. We hugge, high-fived and went out to dinner to celebrate. Unfortunately there is a bit of a black cloud over our celebration...we know the reality of a seeing a positive pregnancy test doesn't mean you are going to have a baby 9 months later.
On Wednesday morning I called the doctor first thing and I went in for two rounds of blood work. My first hcg was 40 and two days later it was 123!! Now I an not so patiently waiting for our ultrasound on Feb 8th.
Side Note: I took another "cheap" test the next morning and it was still negative. I wrote the company a letter and got my money back.
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