Yesterday after happy hour with a few girlfriends I came home and cornered Mr. Brouwers on the couch. I started crying and asking all those questions with no answers “why me?” and then I followed it with a “it’s not fair” and he of course responded by pretty much telling me that I was being irrational (which I was) but that was the LAST thing I wanted to hear.
In the light of day I know that I was being irrational and pretty much ALL my thoughts around my miscarriage and ttc are irrational.
It’s only being 8 months since we started this journey.
25% of pregnancies end in a miscarriage
There are people that have been TRYING for years and still don’t have their miracle – Who am I to complain?
As the next few months are going to be very telling about our journey to parenthood I am going to try my hardest to ask the question “Why NOT me” what makes me more deserving of a perfect pregnancy story than the next desperate person trying to conceive. And if I learn this road is going to be a long and bumpy one I will try to hardest to say “why NOT me” because after all He has a plan and I will try my hardest to use Him to make greatness out of whatever is handed to me.
Why NOT me?
4 comments:
Hi Liz (and Mike),
I didn't know that you guys were trying to have a baby! I'm so sorry to hear that you had a miscarriage...I can't even imagine... I just wanted to let you know that I will be praying for you guys to be blessed with a healthy pregnancy/baby. We tried for a very long time with Ellie too (about a year)...not so long compared to a lot of people, but it definitely felt like forever! We ended up seeing a fertility specialist, so give me a call if you ever just want to chat or just let out your frustrations!
Thanks Julie!!
Hi Liz! I just came across your blog, and I am so glad I did. It breaks my heart to see that you've been trying and it has not been easy for you guys. I will be praying for you two, and I hope you get the answers you need soon! Lots of love,
Emily
love this post because it is EXACTLY what i'm thinking.
new follower!
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